bored

Today a friend posted that she was bored with the crappy day, she was too broke to go shopping, and it was too early to start drinking, but at least she had bacon. Well after laughing, I thought, way to turn lemons into lemonade. It is that kind of positive attitude one sometimes needs to get through a boring, dreary, rainy, run-of-the-mill day. Today I had big intentions for my time alone in the shop. After having coffee and watching the weather, I realized those big intentions weren't happening. Completely disgruntled with my lack of business which lead to my lack of enthusiasm for my projects, I planted my derriere on my sold vintage sofa and did nothing. All day I had this anticipatory feeling, like waiting for company to arrive, but to no avail. There I sat and there I waited. Bored, bored, bored. I don't do bored well, so used to always being busy. I was out of paint so nothing got painted. I was out of money so no new stock came in. By the end of the day I was completely out of patience. Even my fresh-baked zucchini bread couldn't comfort my bleak mood. Upon coming home to dishes in the sink and garbage not put out didn't help my situation either. This of course lead to words with my husband who truly did not deserve my wrath. On top of that, my crappy contact feels like glass in my eye and by 5:00 I was ready to scream. Even my treadmill made me angry, staring at me the way it does. Any positive thoughts about that lemonade went right out the door. Ahhh, big sigh. Of course as I always say when these insignificant, trivial matters clutter my brain and my day, there are some that have it worse. I could be homeless or without my family or have a lot of credit card debt. I suppose we complain to feel better about ourselves without realizing how stupid our complaints sound in the grand scheme of things. I built this little blog of mine based on my internal struggles with our world. There are just some days where life is not all hearts and unicorns and today is one of them. Tomorrow will be better. Thursday I get to shop for the store and Friday I have lovely dinner plans. Until than I will pour a glass of wine and cook up my bacon. Good night world.