resolution

Well we survived, the end of the world that is. Happy new year my friends and fellow readers. It is a new year, new beginnings, new opportunities, what have you. I am just happy we are all still here. I know, I'm crazy for even thinking the end was near, but I tend to worry about the really dumb stuff that no one else does. Who am I kidding, I worry about everything. My husband was ready to deport me considering all the times I asked him if the world was going to end. Back when we got married I worried relentlessly about flesh-eating bacteria breakouts. See, crazy. Now my worries can just be about the daily minutae, so relieved am I. Soooo, a new year, which means new year's resolutions. Every year we make them to no avail. We are usually right back to smoking, eating, not exercising, even worrying, within a month.Well not this year! This year I am inspired to not make any resolutions.  I have decided that I like just who I am. Well sure I could be more patient, lose 5 lbs, not be so bossy, save my money better, but who couldn't? I have been trying for 42 years to be more patient. If it hasn't happened by now, well, there you go. They say( whoever "they" is) that life is what happens when you're not looking and I think I finally get this. Maybe it's my middle age or that I have wasted SO much time wishing for this and wishing for that, but when it comes right down to it, I am postively happy and content with this life. Maybe it's learning to choose your battles as you get older or maybe we DO get wiser. I don't know I just know that if we spend all our time trying to be this "perfect" person we are going to waste a LOT of this precious life we've been given. Age doesn't slow down and wait for us to figure it all out or get our shit together. As I sit here at my counter listening to my child and Dora playing in the background, eating my homemade banana bread after just cleaning my grimy kitchen, I am content. Life really is this simple. Yes, I need to get on the treadmill, get back to work, the norm, but for now I'll take this for a few more days. I am going to rest, recharge, and not look at my bank account. I am going to clean and bake and play with my child in the snow. I am not going to think about all the things I could try to change because as stated above I like the person I've become and have enjoyed all the roads I've traveled to find that person. Good afternoon world.