love and marriage

Yes, I'm going there. I will try to tackle this ever tricky subject though not in a Dr. Phil/couples therapy kind of way. I've been doing a lot of driving lately so playing new music lessens the boredom. I find I am especially haunted by Alexi Murdoch's Away We Go soundtrack. There is one song in particular that makes me bawl like a baby. In short the line of the song that triggers my emotions goes as follows"If I can't be all that I can be, will you wait for me?" You see my husband and I have been together almost 15 years, whoo feels like we just met, and have endured many different careers together. Well actually he has sampled many different "careers". There was catering, cooking, making pasta, and even a quick jaunt in a garden center, so you can imagine my excitement when he proclaimed he was going to be a teacher. My husband was born to teach. He has a soft story-like way of recreating history or even his day that leaves you wanting more. Lets face it, if he can teach this rockhead about the Vietnam War, he can teach anyone. After 4 years of part-time master's program and a year of student teaching, he was graduated and ready for a job. Ah, there lies the rub. Job, what job? Unfortunately our education system is undergoing some wierd metamorphosis and once bountiful jobs have become scarce. To my dismay. See I was all ready to quit my restaurant job and just run my store and be a mom. Simplify. At this stage in my life simplicity and stability are what I  long for. So lack of jobs became a bone of contention on the homefront causing many an argument. Now I am a sensible person albeit an impatient one. I understand this roadblock is NOT his fault, but it doesn't make me feel any better. This leads back to the song line. Through all the many phases of our life together, the one constant is that I love my husband more than all the money in the world. If he can't be all that he was made to be, yes I will wait for him, for in his love is my salvation. Thank you Alexi for making me see the light. Goodnight world.